I get so excited a month before my birthday and I make sure I grill all my friends to remember the date.I have recurring nightmares that people would forget that its MY BIRTHDAY!!! Its a big deal.You know what! I wish it was a public holiday. 😀
I grew up celebrating my Birthdays on a big scale.There would be 2 sets of new clothes,lot o chocolates to take to school,a party in the evening with lots o people,balloons,cake,candles,gift wrapped gifts and wide spread of desserts and return gifts. Then, I turned 13 and suddenly I am all grown up for a celebration(sigh!) I am gonna have all of that, no matter how old I am at least once in my life time(even if that makes me look like a self absorbed narcissist) 😉
Have you ever felt like the world around you is zipping by and you are a spectator, watching time rush by. It always feels like that around this time of the year. Ive had 25 years of experience in this world and I don’t know if I am wise enough for a 25 year old. Some part of me refuses to grow up. I wake up everyday and fall in love with so many things and I’m scared I will stop loving them someday.In simpler words… I’m perpetually scared I will turn into an old granny too early. 😀
I was never sure what I wanted to be as a grown up. Kids usually would say ‘I wanna be a doctor’ or ‘I wanna be a scientist’ or ‘a pirate’ or something. All I knew was that ‘I did not wanna be a doctor’ but I wanted to be famous..(it was my lil secret) :)…just simply famous. Ah! its so much easier in my dreams.But today… I don’t even know if people would notice if I disappear one day. Oh my! I sound so morbid :D… K it might not be that bad, but yeah.. I’m not famous ‘YET’ 🙂
I’m certainly not a big fan of growing up.. well who is. I wake up everyday telling myself, that I’m going to be a cheerful and loving person today, and some days it is easy to be that person, but it seems to be getting harder and harder to be like that… its almost a challenge. Well,life’s never easy I guess, if anything it keeps getting tough.But the point is… here I am dealing with problems in life as gracefully as I can. I have survived all the tough patches and made it this far.. unimpaired. 🙂 and its cause o the love and support I get from every single person I know in my life.
Love you all tons!!!